When little matters

“I don’t understand what makes you feel so strong”. He was obviously referring to I have nothing to feel strong about. I don’t believe he knew at that point how right he was. One is strong, invincible when there is nothing to loose. Now of course there is a lot to loose, family, work, the life one has grown so accustomed to. But even that didn’t discourage me from being blatantly disinterested in forthcoming consequences.

One thing that has slowly been growing in my awareness is that very little matters atcually. That one can pretty much be, do, say what one want to say without too much consequence. People talk, people bark but actions are shining with their absence.
In the end, as the world goes around, why bother? Why let fear grip hold of us, paralyzing us from decisions we ought to have taken a long time ago?
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Late last night, we came to an understanding. I think, I hope…. As I woke up this morning he mumbled my name. The truce still holds…