Mind over matter

Posted by: fracas on February 8 @ 10:46 am

I thrive on routine. Or perhaps thriving is not exactly the right word for something considered for many as boring and mundane. But the truth of the matter is all those action lists, agenda items and hour by hour, minute by minute based work and life procedures create a certain structure for me which makes me feel comfortable, in control and on my own turf so to speak. Last week kind of put this on it’s head when I embarked on a 5 day salsa bootcamp. I only lasted for three and a half. By Thursday I couldn’t ignore the flu symptoms and even though I struggled to continue I had to see myself defeated.

Years ago, when I was 19 I met someone who left an imprint on my life. V had as her motto “Mind over matter”. I took it to my heart and whenever a situation seemed too difficult, I would conjure up this line in my head…. Mind over matter, like a mantra I would repeat it until I knew I could take on whatever obstacle I was facing. Last night it came to me again. It was Sunday, the night before a long week ahead. I knew I was facing anxiety attacks and a sleepless night. But I decided I wasn’t going to let my fast beating heart take over my well needed sleep. Equally I wasn’t going to spend my thoughts on worrying about the future. The future will always work out in the end. It took me three hours to fall asleep. But I managed to keep the panic attacks and the worries at bay. Sometime after 3 am I fell into a deep leep. A small victory, but a victory nevertheless. Mind over matter. Everything is possible. Nothing is unobtainable.