Insights - Trip to Copenhagen part I

Posted by: fracas on March 10 @ 5:20 pm

Insight always come when you least expect it. Because when you search for it, it remains hidden, only to appear like a glimmer of gold lost on the bottom of a vast ocean. It’s sometime hard to recognise, and on the occasions it appears one only has a small window of opportunity to catch it. What happened in the last days was a rainfall of hints and allusions. They came like firework, bombarding me like little rays of light, flashing and sparkling right before my very eyes.

There was the conversation over dinner on Wednesday evening. A conversation about boredom, and the trivial and all the so not important things, which paradoxically makes us all feel even more important.

Then there was the ride to Copenhagen. We talked about everything and anything….. past, present and future. At a certain moment I shrieked at the sight of a gaping hole in my diamond engagement ring. A different conversation ensued, and it opened my mind. Or perhaps it was preceded by an earlier event that had already unlocked it. I believe the latter to be true, which I shall explore later on.

We arrived at Copenhagen in the evening, and too tired to search for a restaurant after a long drive, ordered room-service by way of sushi and an excellent bottle of red. The alcohol hit my throat, tantalizing my palate before gushing through my veins. It felt good. A warm sensation spread throughout my body and I wanted more… more of everything, more warmth, more scent, more touch, more love… It felt like it was ages ago, and yet only yesterday. Everything was there as I remembered and still so much more, on the brink of exaltation and ecstasy. I don’t know how long it lasted for, but I recall a moment I felt as I was looking down upon myself, as being part of a film, in the scene where two lovers embrace after a long period of absence. The scene which ends with spoken words of memories, and promises of never parting or letting go. And so our evening ended….with my confessions of prior wrongdoings, sins washed away by sweat and tears, only to be wiped away by the person I love. I fell asleep, free of guilt at last.