Finding back myself

My body has been acting up today. Like it is preparing for the major event. It’s a feeling I have. I tried to convince Reinout that my feelings are a strong indication to future events. But to him it all sounds pretty flaky. Besides statistically speaking it’s not unlikely we will have a baby in the coming week or two. It’s almost a given. Yet, feelings shouldn’t be dismissed. I’ve had premonitions that started half a year before the actual event. But somewhere along the way I lost them. Perhaps because I was doubting. Lately they have been coming back, on many different levels. It feels safe, like I am finding myself back again. The Susanne I thought was no longer there, replaced by a person I didn’t know, didn’t care to  know and wasn’t worthy of knowing, is gradually emerging. This year will be a great year. I can feel it…

Thinking…

…of what the future beholds