Fracas Noir || Susanne Waldau - te Brake I swear to tell the truth as I know it…

I was convinced I was experiencing something like pre-contractions yesterday evening. Happy with joy I took a sip of Reinout’s wine and popped 2 paracetamols for pain relief. In anticipation of a long night I settled on the sofa to watch a film – the Bank Job with Jason Statham. The film took away most [...]

Today is in fact D-day. The day I am due. No signs yet apart from a soaring back pain, which is shooting off through my legs, like little electric currents. I am so fed up with the whole pregnancy thing. It’s always like that, when you run a marathon it’s the last kilometres that are [...]

I just came home from a facial. This was the last facial before D-day and thus I got a bit of extra pampering with a relaxing face, shoulder and neck massage. I just have to paint my toenails and do a manicure to be ready for the big show. A girl wants to give birth [...]

It’s getting closer and closer to D-day. I’m not really sure that I am prepared for this adventure. I haven’t read a single baby book, and I’m still missing bits and pieces for being fully baby proof. Reinout is more organised than I am though. Today he came home with the cutest baby furniture to [...]

I thank my lucky star in this moment for having met Reinout. Because if it wasn’t for him, I would be sitting here with nothing to fill my time, twiddling my thumbs and watching day time television. A bleak existance for any cosmogirl. Or wait a second (pausing for thought), if it wasn’t for Reinout [...]

When life changes drastically around you, you need strategies to cope with it. I believe the latest word for it is lifehacking, although to me I don’t see the difference from the endless tips in Cosmopolitan on how to get a better sex life, cope with stress, or find that dream job. It’s all list [...]

I don’t know if it was my self-imposed morning therapy that did it, but today has been a super day. You know one of those days, when you feel a heavy stone lifting from your chest which leaves you both light and exhilarated Well that sums up my day. After the sadness had lifted I [...]

Today is exactly a month away until I am due. To  “celebrate” this feat I had my intake conversation with the “neonatal care” (Dutch: Kraamzorg) that every Dutch woman is entitled to.  It consist of  a minimum of 3 hours of help every day for 8 days where you are being taught all the principles [...]

Last night I got a call from Reinout. I was in bed upstairs and he was on the sofa. As we haven’t figured out telepathy yet, mobile and skype are frequent means of communication within our three storey town house. Reinout was on the couch with the dogs and thought it was a brilliant opportunity [...]

My day has been slow and tedious. Everything takes twice as long to do. Work, cooking, cleaning etc. Loads of stuff I don’t even bother doing any longer. The wash is still in the washing machine since yesterday. I haven’t put a new cover on the bed since Cecile had her accident (at least I [...]