Fracas Noir || Susanne Waldau - te Brake I swear to tell the truth as I know it…

In the middle of my emotional and temporarily confused state of mind, my midwife called me. She was asking if everything was all right. I didn’t really feel like telling her that no I just felt like crap, so I settled for a simple “yes”. In fact every question she fired off after that was [...]

Reinout and I had planned for a walk into town today. I was really looking forward to this, although dreading it at the same time. I was not sure if I could actually fit anything I wanted to wear. I had been wearing my jeans for the three weeks not washing them as this would [...]

Several people have asked me about the birth. It’s funny because although I am pretty carefree in discussing most of my private life, inner thoughts and feelings to the point that I’m not sure what kind of impression I actually give of myself, this feels like a rather private matter. But then again, since I [...]

Sebastian Maximilian Alexander Waldau-te Brake
Born February 17, 2009, 13.13 hour

It’s 5.35 and so far haven’t got any sleep. Contractions started around 1.30 AM, although I’m not really sure they are contractions. More like a heavy pain in my back and abdomen. Eventually, after exhausting Reinout with my moaning I went downstairs. He is now sleeping like a lamb…God I envy him!  In some way [...]

They say women go through the nesting syndrome in her last few weeks of pregnancy. I don’t think I really had that, largely because of my blog and the development of onlinesalsa.com. These two babies of mine provided much needed distraction. Instead I let the cleaning to our cleaning lady, and frankly had to accept [...]

It’s a very strange period, like being in twilight zone. For every day that goes by I am getting closer to my goal, but still no sign. It makes things a little difficult to plan for, like my life is on hold. Fortunately I had a message on my voicemail from my midwife. Tomorrow [...]

I’m walking around like a geisha in our house. Small steps, left, right, left and right again. Walking normally is not an option. The pain in my back and legs keeps coming and going, but when it comes it’s with a vengeance. We bought a whole load of sauerkraut on the advice of the lady [...]

I love when I have a good occasion to dress up, which I did today….for my midwife. Having only two pieces of clothing items left makes life tremendously simple. I shall never EVER again complain about my limited wardrobe. I promise, I promise!

Check out the highheel boots…perfect pregnancy fashion

Coffee break

Reinout and Victoria burst into the room. It was about 6 pm and I was busy cleaning up my overflowing inbox.
“OK, when are you going to have the God damn baby?”
“Yeah mummy?” Victoria added for good measure.
Reinout handed over a pineapple shake. “Drink!”
“OK, OK” I said. I knew that Reinout had done a bit [...]