Fracas Noir – Susanne Waldau – te Brake ~ for better or worse

We had a long lunch, at one of the restaurants at the market square. Every time I go there, I feel like I’m on a date with Reinout. It’s an odd feeling, making me feel hot and cold at the same time. After all, our first real date started there; in a grand cafe on [...]

Sometimes the past catches up with you, making itself known when you least expect it. It’s like it has made a unilateral decision to knock on your door and remind you what happened all those months and years ago. It was about 1.30 am. Reinout had just turned out the light and was closing his [...]

When you are a girlfriend, a wife, a lover, you may think you are the only one. But you’re not. Because there is always the ex. I say the ex in singular, because it’s in fact the X, as in X-factor. The love of your partner’s life. That’s the X, that has become a ghost [...]

One of the things I’ve noticed being pregnant is that your libido is playing tricks on you. It’s been going in phases, depending on sleeping patterns, hormones and bodily changes. The first months were a roller coaster to say the least, but as my breasts were swelling from a small C to a D, so [...]

Coming back on that hotel room dream I had the other night. The hotel that figured in my dream appeared very similar to the hotel I once had a similar experience in, this time somewhat more raunchy. I must have been about 18, and had some week earlier been introduced to E who moved in [...]

A friend of mine sent me a link to an article of my signature scent – Fracas what else? It opens as follow “There are perfume legends, there are perfumer legends, and then there are perfumes that become obsessions. Fracas is all three…”. I couldn’t agree more. The opening line alone identifies my own olfactory [...]

The day started good but somehow ended in a horrible argument. We are still not on speaking terms, and have withdrawn to our respective territories of the house. I chose the upstairs quarters with my ironing and two films and Reinout opted for his computer.  It has made me feel completely down, and to increase [...]

There is no such feeling as when you have worked like a dog and you can finally enjoy the fruits of your labour. I’ve been cleaning since early this morning and at 10 pm I dotted the i’s and crossed the t’s. Fortunately I had Caroline to help me  and she did a marvellous job. [...]

And here they are….some at least! Sx

Today I got something I’ve been waiting for a long time – our wedding book! Finally 8 months after the actual event on April 26, 2008 it’s here! I rushed upstairs to open it. It’s like being transported in time and place to the happiest day of my life. Looking back on that day, or [...]