Fracas Noir – Susanne Waldau – te Brake ~ for better or worse

The last week I have come to realize how fragile “the art” of feeling happy really is. I used to consider it a complete impossibility to be happy all the time. After all there would be moments of sorrow, missed opportunities, regrets and ailments that would swing the balance. But perhaps this is not really [...]

In a rare moment of tranquility, I’ve been left undisturbed in bed with my laptop. It’s a stark contrast to the last days where 4 out of 5 days went sleepless. It’s the first night I actually slept for the whole duration with exception from attending Sebastian a few times. Still it is blissful. It’s [...]

I came across this great Vivienne Westwood dress from her Red Label. It would be prefect for some upcoming Christmas parties, notably one for tomorrow. I offer my husband a deal. It’s just an early Christmas present. Eventually he gives in after I promise and swear I will not only not expect any other presents [...]

I woke up to Reinout and Sebastian arriving home. An hour earlier I had gone to bed with the mother of headaches, calling it a day with the promise to continue work in the evening. After dinner (steak again!) Reinout run another bath for me to relax and now I’m in bed planning to go [...]

It’s not even mid week and I feel utterly exhausted. The word holiday has become my mantra, yet it’s as elusive as ever. Will we ever get away to some sunny place, where one can just forget about work (not to mention life!) and revamp oneself to 2.x? The words “NOT” and “BANKING” spring somehow [...]

I was going through some of my recently taken pictures and came across an incredibly cute one of Reinout and Sebastian waiting at the hairdresser. Needless to say, it ends up on the blog. That and the statement that Reinout blurted out the other day… Reinout: “Do you think I look younger when I have [...]

I set the alarm for 7.45. It’s my week to get back into a normal schedule. But as the hours went by, sleep doesn’t find me. Luckily my book does, as I’m reading the Murderer’s Daughters by RS Meyers (another one I’d absolutely recommend!). Sleep does hit me sometime between 1.35 and 2 am. Only [...]

The room is filling with noise. Somewhere I have a vague feeling a bath is being made up. I pull the duvet even closer around my ears to block out the constant stream of aural input. I think it works for about half an hour. Then my husband wakes me up slowly. He’s whispering sweet [...]

We were suppose to go out for a dinner tête-à-tête, but the universe had other plans alas… Perhaps it was that penis post (he got about 10 text messages querying hygiene issues and I suppose other things too) or the fact I fell asleep waiting for his imminent arrival. Who knows…the honest truth is I [...]

When I started this blog, I wanted it to be an outlet for whatever popped up in my mind. It was my own little experiment. Could I really write about everything openly and honestly online? The first part was rather easy. Yes, you can write about anything. And from my own experience, the bolder you [...]