Fracas Noir – Susanne Waldau – te Brake ~ for better or worse

It’s 9.40 and I’m at the gym when I’m overcome with an overwhelming sadness. The kind that goes straight to your heart, whilst blocking any airways. I choke. Literally. But I keep going on the crosstrainer. Every circle another second bygone. It doesn’t go away, doesn’t even fade, but slowly reason conquers that of heart. [...]

Early gym, then pedicure and manicure. Luxury comes in small packages.

Little one is just off to bed, and I’m finally on the couch relaxing with Victoria. Reinout left for a promo tour earlier today and will be gone for two weeks. It’s the longest we’ve been away from each other, but then again absence makes the heart grow fonder right? Today I’ve been working on [...]

I dreamt I found a lost seal on the street. Someone told me I couldn’t take it, that it would have to be left to natures cause. I protested with all my might and brought the seal home. He had the most saddest of eyes. So I nurtured it for days and it survived. Then [...]

My stomach is churning from hunger pangs, still not having had my breakfast yet. I woke up some 45 minutes ago when my husband and my little boy crashed through the door of the guestroom. I had only slept about 4 hours, finally succumbing to slumber after 6 am. It was already light for some [...]

The sun is shining in through the window to our bedroom. It is an absolutely glorious day best spent in the forrest or on perhaps cold but sunny beach. But I am in bed, alas… Reinout’s flu (which made me cancel my trip to Malta – hence still being in Haarlem) finally caught up with [...]

Another week of no blogging. I start wondering if I’m loosing inspiration. A friend of mine told me I should perhaps start FracasNoir 2.0. And in fact the idea is not that bad. I long for a new design (pink, what was I thinking??!) along with a more positive and extrovert blog. This blog has [...]

The jetlag is killing me. Or more like 3 people being out of synch in one hotelroom. Once again I woke up before the sun did and started cramping up. That together with tingling sensation in my hand and loss of power are the tell tale signs I need to get more sleep. As a [...]

My rhythm has changed from late nights and 7.30 am wake-ups to early nights and waking up before 6 am. It’s not so bad actually. The gym is already buzzing with activity from jet lagged business people when I get there just after 6 o’clock. I do my usual routine for an hour before I [...]

It’s weird, bordering to the insane to watch the Oscars normal time. At 8.30 pm the award cermony is over and I almost feel cheated. I’m left with an overwhelming “is this really it?” feeling. On the plus side I’m sitting glued to the telly watching the stars from the afterparties. It’s something Europe is [...]