Fracas Noir – Susanne Waldau – te Brake ~ for better or worse

Anniversaries tend to be days you want to remember. The birthdays, the wedding days, the day you became officially a couple. We don’t celebrate divorce days, the day you went bankrupt or found out you had cancer. Instead we shy away from those dates to the point of forgetting them. Still I think they serve [...]

Where does youth end and middle age set in? When I was 20 I felt really young and grown up at the same time.  The fact that money was running scarce and I had to uphold two jobs, one of which in a coffeeshop, didn’t make the slightest difference. In fact, it made me feel [...]

There are some things in life that mean more than hearing those three magic words. It’s the little deeds that are in fact the most remarkable acts of humanity. That occurs when you least expect it but need it the most. I had such an experience last night. I woke up in the middle of [...]

I’m getting a new addiction…relaxation. Which is what I have been dedicating myself to all day.  It’s something I haven’t been used to since about 11 years ago (my last maternity leave). It involves unpleasantries such as sleeping in, long lunches, shopping, hot baths and weekly facials. Terrible, but someone’s got to do it. Sundays [...]

I’m currently in salsa heaven…and this is great news! Because it’s a great source of inspiration for me personally as well as professionally. I recall the first time I was introduced to salsa music. It was Dirty Dancing, when Johnny Castles dances with his regular dance partner Penny Johnson. I still love that classic mambo [...]

And so it’s finally the day to say goodbye to the old and welcome the new.  To me this New Year feels more special than others in the past. Perhaps because I know there are so many changes around the corner. It makes my belly flutter….literally as the baby inside me is making himself (or [...]

When you are looking at a year that has passed you can sum it up as a good year or a bad year. Because there is always some event that overshadowed the rest and tips the balance in favour of one or the other. So when it’s my turn to look at my own year, [...]

“Sometimes being totally fucked can be a liberating experience.” Happiness in the Air that I breath. Inspiration is fuel for creativity. A life elixir that injects us with visions and dreams of our own destiny.  It’s so easy to get lost in the mundane day that leaves very little to imagination. Children have it in [...]

There is a quietness in our household bordering to the unquiet. It is neither restless nor peaceful. It just is. Like there are no more words that can be said, and yet so many it’s hard to know where to begin. I am not a master in argumentation. I wish that was the case, as [...]

The day started good but somehow ended in a horrible argument. We are still not on speaking terms, and have withdrawn to our respective territories of the house. I chose the upstairs quarters with my ironing and two films and Reinout opted for his computer.  It has made me feel completely down, and to increase [...]