Fracas Noir – Susanne Waldau – te Brake ~ for better or worse

In my hallucination I saw my beloved’s flower garden In my vertigo, in my dizziness In my drunken haze Whirling and dancing like a spinning wheel I saw myself as the source of existence I was there in the beginning And I was the spirit of love Now I am sober There is only the [...]

Things are rarely what they seem. And yet we keep on getting first impressions and sticking to those. What happened to thinking out-of-the-box? No, predisposition towards assumptions and believing that our own belief system is  absolute right and flawless keep prevailing. It got me thinking lately of my own actions and where the responsibility truly [...]

When the Year End is closing in and the New is in close range, it’s natural to start thinking  of what has been, what might have been, and what is in store. I can only remember a few years like this one, where I was glad to see the year behind me. The first such [...]

It’s no secret that married life has been a roller-coaster in the last months. Arguments are succeeded by tender embraces, kisses (and the make-ups!) only to be transitioned into another disagreement. I have lost count how many times I’ve called it a day, and I’m sure Reinout has too. But sometimes it is time to [...]

I’m a one-person show. Admittedly I have very few friends, and in times of adversity the number rapidly decreases to nil. It’s not of fault on their behalf. I get enough calls and emails, but my replies are short and spartan. Lunch dates and get-togethers get postponed until they dwindle down to nothing. I make [...]

I’m listening to this beautiful Cuban son… Morenita by La Orquesta Magica de la Habana. And I’m reading about the earthquake on Haiti. Perhaps one is so used to blocking images of poor, destitute, helpless… It’s so far away to once own safety. But lately I have forced myself to look a second time…not just [...]

Exactly a week after the New Year made it’s entree, I am ready to make my New Year’s Resolutions. It’s not so much about resolutions but about goals. In many ways they are similar to last year. Having said that it doesn’t mean I achieved anything in the last year. If last year was about [...]

It wasn’t until today, the third of January I had time for reflection over the past year and set course for the year ahead. I love New Year, as it truly gives you a clean slate. The past is metaphorically buried in Old Year History, and after a while even that will turn into nostalgia. [...]

There comes a time in a woman’s life when she realises that everything she learned about being being sweet, well mannered and polite was all just a myth. I remember the first days in school that pretty much shaped the rest of my school years. The girls were all sitting politely in their chairs, raising [...]

I love when days are just flying by, their beginning and end seamlessly connected. That’s when you feel you actually accomplished something. It reminds me of one of the rules of the garage from HP “Make a contribution every day. If it doesn’t contribute, it doesn’t leave the garage.” It’s a rule I’ve been giving [...]