Fracas Noir – Susanne Waldau – te Brake ~ for better or worse

In town it’s crowded. As I walk in my black pencil skirt my thighs are rubbing together from the heat. That forever taking diet is not paying off. Thigh rubbing or not, I decide against a cappuccino and order just a black coffee. A biscuit that accompanies it gets handed over to Sebastian who eagerly [...]

I wake up early from Sebastian crying. I give him a bottle and walk into the toilet to drink some water. The heat is stifling. Outside, the sky is losing the purple hue of dawn and the first rays of the blazing sun is piercing the window. I close my eyes, desperately trying to ward [...]

I love perfumes. They add definition, drama and passion to my character. Like any other woman I have different perfumes for different occassions. What sets me apart from what I dare to say the rest of the population is my obsession for rare, exclusive perfumes. In my book it’s a travesty to buy any D&G, [...]

Summer has really hit Holland, and for once it’s real summer. It’s hot, hot, hot and I suddenly find myself without a proper summer working waredrobe. If it wasn’t for an account in C minus I would’ve gone on a shopping spree, because it’s sales. Instead I find myself planning a weekend of dinner and [...]

I walk downstairs to be greeted by a royal mess. There is dog hair everywhere, dust, pillows from the coach are on the floor (why can’t you just lock up the damn dogs during the night!!). The kitchen table has a permanent film of dirt over it. Flies are hoovering over a fruit basket which [...]

18.06 and finally on my way home. An ordinary day in every sense of the word. 1.2 meetings, a number of emails and the start of a lengthy Project Definition Document. At 5 pm my energy level started to wane and despite blueberries, nuts and cold black coffee I couldn’t sustain my creativity level. I [...]

Dreaming vividly…..a reoccurring dream with my daughter in it. The circumstances change, the subject or the main plot not. I dream of neglecting her, in some cases I am mean and vile. I wake up and turn on the shower. I let hundreds of single droplets fall on back and chest, carefully avoiding my hair. [...]

I woke up early this morning; 3 minutes before scheduled alarm time at 6.40. The sun was blending with the white blinds that furnish our bedroom windows. Yesterday felt far away and I was soon reminded that it was Friday, which admittedly set the spirit in high altitudes. I dressed quickly and headed for the [...]

It hasn’t probably escaped the few still popping by my blog, that I haven’t been very active lately. The reasons are many, some I feel happy to disclose, others not. Suffice to say, the last few weeks I didn’t feel really brilliant. I slipped into something of a summer depression painting my whole world black. [...]

I read not too long ago that the effect of a holiday only lasts 2-3 days. And I can feel it, as soon as Monday hits, the brain (albeit slowly) is getting back into a sluggish action. My long, Sleeping-beauty-like nocturnal bed rests are a mere memory. Instead I struggle to keep myself on an [...]