Fracas Noir || Susanne Waldau - te Brake I swear to tell the truth as I know it…

Weekend didn’t really turn out as anticipated. It rarely does! Sebastian was not really well so we decided against going to MJ birthday’s party. Instead we spent the evening at home. I was so tired and fell asleep at 9 pm, only to wake up 12 hours later. Yesterday I didn’t do much else than [...]

Some days can turn out unexpectantly good, completely unforseen, out of the blue! And so with 5 cups of coffee I survived the day, better than I’d thought. In fact the day went by in a breeze and at 5.30 pm I was on my way home to prepare a dinner for our management team [...]

Morning did break the spell. I can’t say I feel particularly “fresh” but it’s Friday, end of a long week, and hopefully some catching up on sleep. I feel bad for Reinout, although he sleeps, he wakes up from my frustrations, turning on and off the light and occasionally crying. It’s like living with a [...]

I’m about to run out of batteries on my laptop so this will have to be a short blogpost. So….
•    slept well (popped two pills)
•    early gym session (woke me up)
•    a 5 minute conversation with myself about what to wear (I settled for a vintage Karen Millen dress, black stockings and black shoes from [...]

I just woke up having the weirdest of dreams. I was working in an old building which was a cross between the office in Amsterdam and the local cigar shop in Haarlem. I had my own little room in the office where I was sitting working away when I lost my eye. Yes my right [...]

The window is open casting spells of sun on the amber coloured parquet. A gentle breeze is landing on my skin. I can hear the churchbells in the distance, echoing through the bare, empty streets. I feel so good. All around me are signs of love. The cuddly toys strewn over the floor, a discarded [...]

Half an hour until next meeting and a window of opportunity presents for a blog post. Today is one of those good days, when the action list is diminishing in rapid succession and I’m down to (you won’t believe it) 6 emails in my inbox. Tjoohoo! Life is good!

I’m so happy about something [...]

I’m rummaging my bag for something to blow my nose with. Anything to blow my nose with. It’s so bad that when I find a pantyliner I contemplate for a moment to use it, I scan my fellow train riders. They appear to be into their Metro newspapers and I just need one opportunity to [...]

When life is speeding by, overtaking my own inner, core pace, I find little delight in writing. Mundane events holds no inspiration, but thoughts and motivations to those actions do. Yet, I need to find precious time to read, breath, travel my mind in search of the obscure, the twisted, the raw…
The last weeks emotions [...]

“I don’t understand what makes you feel so strong”. He was obviously referring to I have nothing to feel strong about. I don’t believe he knew at that point how right he was. One is strong, invincible when there is nothing to loose. Now of course there is a lot to loose, family, work, the [...]