Fracas Noir – Susanne Waldau – te Brake ~ for better or worse

The first time I came across an album of Putumayo was in a small lunch cafe on a side street off the Haarlem market square. It was one of those cafes that takes great pride in their organic coffee, vitamin infused smoothies and vegetarian sandwiches. Each time I walked through the door to order a [...]

Life rarely turn the way we expect. In my own case perhaps more so than others. I’ve been told I’m drawn to trouble, and recently a friend of mine (once a very close one) told me “Susanne you will never change”. A single line in an otherwise empty email, poignantly ended our friendship. I considered [...]

17.39. I’ve known him for exactly three days, 17 hours and 34 minutes. I try to calculate the exact amount of hours this would mount up to but fail. Hours always sound more impressive. As long as they go beyond the number 48. He’s standing in front of me, frying up an improvised risotto using [...]

I love perfumes. They add definition, drama and passion to my character. Like any other woman I have different perfumes for different occassions. What sets me apart from what I dare to say the rest of the population is my obsession for rare, exclusive perfumes. In my book it’s a travesty to buy any D&G, [...]

Dreaming vividly…..a reoccurring dream with my daughter in it. The circumstances change, the subject or the main plot not. I dream of neglecting her, in some cases I am mean and vile. I wake up and turn on the shower. I let hundreds of single droplets fall on back and chest, carefully avoiding my hair. [...]

I love horror movies, especially the more psychological ones based on ghosts and demons. Tonight we saw a film which we bought on Queensday called White Noise. It’s based on what’s called EVP, or Electronic Voice Phenomena. In other words recordings of spirits transmitted through tapes, TV or radio. Although not the scariest film, it [...]

When you are a girlfriend, a wife, a lover, you may think you are the only one. But you’re not. Because there is always the ex. I say the ex in singular, because it’s in fact the X, as in X-factor. The love of your partner’s life. That’s the X, that has become a ghost [...]

I have the tendency of becoming obsessed with certain topics. Jack the Ripper, Charles Manson, secret societies, esoterica, death penalty, the darker side of human nature….in fact that is what these subjects mostly have in common. The darker side. It started early on, as early as around 4, 5 years old. I recall seeing a [...]

It’s dark, quiet…only the gentle humming of my mac is making itself heard. A flickering candle is spreading its light, but not far. I am lonely, but yet not. More like a temporary state. I like my solitute. It brings safety, peace and tranquility.

A friend of mine sent me a link to an article of my signature scent – Fracas what else? It opens as follow “There are perfume legends, there are perfumer legends, and then there are perfumes that become obsessions. Fracas is all three…”. I couldn’t agree more. The opening line alone identifies my own olfactory [...]