Fracas Noir || Susanne Waldau - te Brake I swear to tell the truth as I know it…

Some days can turn out unexpectantly good, completely unforseen, out of the blue! And so with 5 cups of coffee I survived the day, better than I’d thought. In fact the day went by in a breeze and at 5.30 pm I was on my way home to prepare a dinner for our management team [...]

Morning did break the spell. I can’t say I feel particularly “fresh” but it’s Friday, end of a long week, and hopefully some catching up on sleep. I feel bad for Reinout, although he sleeps, he wakes up from my frustrations, turning on and off the light and occasionally crying. It’s like living with a [...]

I don’t know what’s worse, sleeping taking pills or not sleeping at all with a heart racing through my body. I’ve been there before 3 days with no sleep. I wanted to kill myself. It’s one big nightmare, one huge panic attack!  The only thing I can think about is work. My family, sadly, has [...]

The last days, weeks in fact, I have been living on tranquillisers to put me to sleep. That familiar feeling of a racing heart coupled with a racing mind had come back to haunt me. This time around I knew the exact reason for my trepidation, but lack of time and perhaps will power too [...]

Here are the pictures of Sunday’s OnlineSalsaTV shooting. I’m afraid there’s little time to give an update on what’s going on today, apart from that I’m waiting in for a meeting in 50 min from now. Then need to finish off the action list for today. Then salsa lesson at 7 pm and after that [...]

Another Monday. Dead tired. Yesterday we did 9 hours of filming, was fun, but a lot of work and 8 cups of coffee. I was in bed by midnight which was quite a feat. Slept for over 7 hours apart from one interruption by Sebastian. Strange dreams. Gym session went well, then shower, first cup [...]

After 36 hours of not blogging – I’M BACK!! But don’t expect a fresh rose, posing in front of the mirror tho show off her Karen Millen dress or Dior pumps. Today I’m in bed, after a quick wash and go session (and in this case I’m only talking about my face). Luckily I’m working [...]

This morning as I was doing my usual 35 minutes on the cross-trainer I went through my schedule for the coming weeks. Sometimes its good to get an overview when you can’t distinguish the trees from the forest.
Right now is like a count down. Every week has different goals and priorities that should be [...]

Finally the day is over…almost. I read that the second Monday of January is the most depressive day of the year. Can’t say I really agree as my day has been pretty good. I’m now on the train home. Dinner for tonight will be a Whopper without cheese and Chicken nuggets with fries for Victoria, [...]

I’m about to run out of batteries on my laptop so this will have to be a short blogpost. So….
•    slept well (popped two pills)
•    early gym session (woke me up)
•    a 5 minute conversation with myself about what to wear (I settled for a vintage Karen Millen dress, black stockings and black shoes from [...]