Fracas Noir – Susanne Waldau – te Brake ~ for better or worse

I suffered a sleepless night, twisting and turning in bed. At 4 o’clock I decided to turn off the alarm as it was already putting pressure on me. It was a good thing, and within minutes I was asleep and slept straight through until 11 am. A bit of panic erupted as I was 2 [...]

To my dismay there was no salsa lesson tonight. The last half an hour had been a rush job, getting dressed, practice a few of those moves and turns and downing a steak that turned out raw, in just under 5 minutes. So there I was, standing in front of closed doors. But I am [...]

I feel so positive! Full of life, energy and ideas. I even had to do a extra 15 min on the cross-trainer this morning. Just had to funnel that energy into somewhere. The cross-trainer took the brunt of it and at some point my speed wasn’t measurable anymore. So what’s going on in my life, [...]

Diet is going well, but it’s only the first day. Still first days can be bad as your body hasn’t adjusted to the limited food intake. As enthusiastic as I was starting this diet I did come across a roadblock I hadn’t expected…the smell of egg. It goes like this… J: “What smell is that? [...]

I can’t get into my favourite shirt from Patrizia Pepe. It’s a champagne coloured silk number which I wore on one my first dates with Reinout. At that point I was about 50 kg’s and looking good. Now, 5 kg’s more, with a fat ass and sagging boobs I am a far cry from that [...]

Belle de Jour was every bit as good as I had imagine. It will join my proud collection of French art-house classics such as Irreversible, Betty Blue, La Haine and Baise Moi. I couldn’t help but wanting to continue my French mood, and thus a few glasses of Champagne and French Vogue later I feel [...]

Yesterday Reinout whisked me off on an impromptu visit to Amsterdam’s Jordaan area. There we were walking along the many market stalls selling everything from fruit and vegetables, Indonesian Lumpia, vintage clothing and fur coats to DVD’s books and antiques. I was very happy as I managed to find a DVD I had wanted to [...]

I love the creations of Els Hillenius, and everytime I walk past I have to make a stop to just get a glimpse of their display. They sell much more than gorgeous dresses, they sell dreams. The kind, well assorted shops did 50 years ago when the masses could rarely afford their content. Today, when [...]

How bad can it get? Indiscretion number two came only hours later with a boob flash to my fellow train passengers. As I was sitting typing away on the first entry, my shirt accidentally got unbuttoned. I don’t know for how long I was sitting there flashing my tits for the public to see, but [...]

The alarm goes off…to the sound of birds. It helps me wake up on a more positive note…honestly. But I drag myself out of bed. My shoulders are still stiff and my mouth is dry excuding a slight pain when I swallow. Getting dressed doesn’t take the usual 5 minutes either. It takes 15. Finally, [...]