Fracas Noir – Susanne Waldau – te Brake ~ for better or worse

I’ve been up since around 7 this morning, first hitting the gym, then a quick shower and dashing off to the baby clinic for Sebastian’s first vaccination. He was not happy bunny when he got two shots – one in each leg. The vaccination has made him somewhat drowsy and he now lays next to [...]

For the first time in months I start to feel hungry. An orange for breakfast is not meeting my food requirements. I use all the will power I have to extend my morning without eating. Orange before 10 am means that I will be hungry again before lunch. It’s true that after rapid weight loss [...]

They say that the last mile before the finishing line is the hardest. It’s when all your energy are completely spent and you are running on the last bit of vapour that is left. And when even the vapour is gone, then it’s down to pure will power. I find myself in a similar situation. [...]

Once in a while, you need one of those long weekends to catch up on sleep, family and friends. They are perfect battery chargers, boosting your energy, breaking those bad patterns and eliminating negative vibes. Easter turned out in many ways to be a mini-life saver. After weeks of struggling with sleep, completely draining my [...]

It’s hot… not a stifling, overwhelming heat. More a glowing, enveloping warmth that penetrates my very being. I stand at the window, all lights are out. I’ve wrapped myself up in a large, cotton cardigan. Nothing else is needed, and as I walk on bare feet on the parquet floor, the cool floorboards are sending [...]

I’ve been giving my last post a bit of thought. After all that is what’s so great about blogging. It’s a real time record of your life, thoughts, dreams, vision… A few people reacted to it, in postings and through mail. And I reacted to it myself too. It’s been an overwhelming time, not only [...]

When Reinout and I were driving away from Copenhagen, he asked me what I wanted from life. I didn’t say anything so he asked again, probing me for an answer. I went blank, I was seriously tired, and I just couldn’t focus on the question. Or perhaps that was just my excuse. Perhaps I had [...]

Finally home after a wet and cold walk through town. Victoria and I have been on the hunt for Easter decoration but to our dismay most of it was already gone. In the end we managed to salvage some odd coloured left overs for our Easter tree which will be decorated tonight.  Highlight of the [...]

I have reasons to be happy on at least two accounts. I slept for a whole 9 hours until 10 AM. It felt fantastic. When I woke up for one of the feedings at 8 in the morning I was just too tired to drag myself to the gym. Instead I went back to sleep [...]

I didn’t sleep particularly well last night. I believe it was the consequence of a rather unpredictable and unrestful ending to the evening. I tried to push away thoughts that kept attacking me in a constant flow. Eventually my fatigue put an end to it and I drifted into sleep. 2 hours later, around 3 [...]