Fracas Noir – Susanne Waldau – te Brake ~ for better or worse

Today has been somewhat of a pampering day for me. First gym, then an hours mid-day sleep (which is a first!) followed by an appointment for deep tissue massage for legs, butt and stomach at Nouvelle Cosmetique. It’s called LPG or Endermologie. The results are suppose to be fantastic for cellulites,  slimming and toning, which [...]

WOW! Sebastian was an angel last night sleeping for 6 hours. I couldn’t believe it and kept waking up listening for minutes until I heard a sign that he was still alive and breathing. But my peace was short lived as Victoria woke me up in the middle of the night complaining that she couldn’t [...]

Enjoy! …and good night, wherever you are…

Reinout, Sebastian and I spent the afternoon in Haarlem for a sumptuous late lunch on the Grote Markt. I ordered a salad and oysters, and plenty of coffee. The coffee revved me up and my tiredness gradually lifted. Our conversation was mundane and trivial but yet as always managed to bring a smile to my [...]

I wake up, first at 3.30 am then again three hours later. It’s been a long day and a long night, not going to bed until 1 am when I did the last feeding. I feel like a milk production factory. I live, breathe and eat for one purpose alone – to produce milk. On [...]

Another 5 hour night has passed, and it shows. My skin looks dreadfully tired, and yesterday Reinout commented on that I have “valleys” under my eyes. I suppose it’s the Dutch equivalent for dark circles.  Not even the hydrofacial that I had at Nouvelle Cosmetique today, could get rid of them, although it did make [...]

“You need to write more about sex. Confessions of a sex addict or a fucked up Swede or something along those lines. Think about all the thousands of uniques you can get.” Reinout has finally joined me in bed after having cleared up downstairs. I am in bed listening to my midnight music and letting [...]

I am back in my most personal and private of places – the boudoir. It’s my own little secret, where my thoughts can run riot, my olfactory sense is tickled with perfumes and scented candles, my taste buds are challenged with breakfasts, lunch and desserts. Such as now….with a cola ice lolly. Its cool iced [...]

I was suppose to have an instructor giving me advice today on my gym regime post-pregnancy. But things didn’t turn out the way I was anticipating. Now things never do, coming to think about the last three weeks that have past by like a whirl-wind. My appointment was early this morning, 9 am. Should have [...]

It appears I have a fan club. Well technically speaking consisting of a few guys working for Reinout. It’s their way of keeping track on their boss. Juicy details are being logged to be used at a later more appropriate date. Reinout was in a conference call yesterday, and I happened to walk in… “Yes, [...]