Fracas Noir || Susanne Waldau - te Brake I swear to tell the truth as I know it…

Today was the last day the maternity nurse was with us. It’s been great having someone here to help out with Sebastian. I’ve felt at times like a princess having got my breakfast and lunch in bed, my bed sheets changed, laundry done… But the last days I started to long for my own privacy [...]

When you are pregnant it’s evident you will gain weight. They say the norm is about 12 kg. In my first pregnancy I gained about 17 kg and in this pregnancy almost 20. Towards the end I refused to even go on the scale knowing I would become depressed being faced with a pointless number.
Yesterday [...]

When Sebastian was born I sent out an email to friends and acquaintances of the big happening in my life. The response was immense. I have gone through emails for days now and finally I’m getting to the point that my inbox is cleared and I can resume my work related tasks again.
What is interesting [...]

I really wish you could be with me now. Our house is so full of joy and laughter, like straight out of an old fashioned children’s story. It has such a pure and charming feeling to it, it in fact even outranks Christmas. In short it’s a happy house.
I didn’t sleep much last night. [...]

Victoria came home this morning after spending the weekend with her dad. We had a talk about certain situations that are now arising from our new family member. Although she is really happy and totally in love with her little brother, it’s also a big change for her. She has been my centre of attention [...]

One of the most wonderful ways to spend your Sunday morning, is in bed with coffee and breakfast, some reading material and listening to classical music, especially opera. I have some favourite pieces that brings tears to my eyes. Turandot’s Non piangere liu by Puccini springs to mind, The Flower Duet from Lakmé, or what’s [...]

Reinout and I had planned for a walk into town today. I was really looking forward to this, although dreading it at the same time. I was not sure if I could actually fit anything I wanted to wear. I had been wearing my jeans for the three weeks not washing them as this would [...]

It’s been an exhausting night, with very little sleep. I went to be bed rather late, after watching some television whilst emailing in my usual style. I did the last feeding around 2 am before going to bed. I was hoping for a good nights sleep, i.e. around 5 hours, but I should have known [...]

I finally feel like I’m hitting earth again, although it’s my intention to keep this feeling of utter bliss for as long as I can, preferably a lifetime. Even though I’ve felt pretty tired today, I managed to clean out my inbox of about 200 emails, most of which were related to the birth of [...]

Several people have asked me about the birth. It’s funny because although I am pretty carefree in discussing most of my private life, inner thoughts and feelings to the point that I’m not sure what kind of impression I actually give of myself, this feels like a rather private matter. But then again, since I [...]