Fracas Noir || Susanne Waldau - te Brake I swear to tell the truth as I know it…

Reinout woke me up this morning, which was just as well as my chest was literally bursting and Sebastian was hungry. He then made me a banana shake and coffee for breakfast. As I was sitting in bed, reading and then writing, Reinout started dropping hints about being ready at 10 am. Ready for what [...]

Reinout has a new scapegoat for any strange sounds or smells…our beloved Sebastian. We are sitting in bed, Reinout with his Donald Duck and me with my Mac. Sebastian is in the middle in his portable bed. Suddenly a sound penetrates the otherwise o so calm Friday evening. Reinout looks at me. “Did you hear [...]

Reinout gave me a lecture today, coming down to priorities. Do I take enough time to rest and relax? No. Am I obsessed about my weight and getting back into shape? Yes. I will come back on this later, to give my view to the matter, but for now it’s suffice to say we didn’t [...]

The last days I have gone through a world wind of emotions. They come and go at strange times, often the moment I least expect them. Yesterday was no different, and in fact my evening was spent mostly shedding tears. Reinout is exhausted. Not so strange as our life has been turned on its head. [...]

I went out today for a long walk with Sebastian. My 6 km running route became my walking route instead. It will probably be another week before I attempt to start running, and starting with long power walks is a good way to ease myself into a fitness regime. It was raining this evening, and [...]

My heroine from early childhood, Scarlett O’Hara coined the now famous cinematic quote “After all….Tomorrow is another day”. And this is so true. Just as we make New Years resolution, start a new life through the purchase of a new diary or changing jobs and apartments, we actually have the possibility to turn over a [...]

In the middle of my emotional and temporarily confused state of mind, my midwife called me. She was asking if everything was all right. I didn’t really feel like telling her that no I just felt like crap, so I settled for a simple “yes”. In fact every question she fired off after that was [...]

My hormones are playing games with me. Although I slept, with interruptions, for 7 hours, I till feel exhausted. By 1 o ‘clock Victoria came home. She suggested us going to the Bagel Bar. I had earlier agreed to making Wednesday afternoons our day. A day for lunching and shopping in town. But with a [...]

I long for two things, spring and a good party! We’re lucky as we have a south facing garden which brings a lot of light into our house. It completely showers our rooms in sun light. I remember when I bought this house, it was almost 4 years ago. Me and my now ex husband [...]

I cooked dinner for the first time in weeks, chicken schnitzels, mashed potatoes and broccoli (well I cut out the mashed potatoes from my own meal). But it left me exhausted. I was convinced I was completely “recovered” but it appears not to be. When dinner was ready to be taken I sank down in [...]